I'll start by saying that I'm 26 years old. I am a good husband, I play sports, I look good, I love my wife. And I have a really beautiful one, the kind that men turn to. The figure is like an hourglass. You can probably wrap your hands around your waist, and your buttocks are just perfectly round. Her face is just like a model, her lips are plump, her eyes are big, a little childish and very attractive. Well, in general, from the outside we are the perfect couple. Yes, but apparently I don't have enough normal relationships. I realized this a long time ago. Even in kindergarten, I learned to masturbate to orgasm, but there was nothing to squirt with. Once he took the older girl to the toilet in the same kindergarten, and offered to look at me. However, when I undressed, she opened the door and loudly shouted "fool!! Girls over here!!"At a quiet hour, he always rang out under the blanket until the nurse decided to fix the blanket. It was embarrassing, but pleasant. Even then, I remember this feeling. Then I realized how nice it is to touch the ass. From the inside. I used a plunger with a smooth handle. One day at school I went to the forest. I stripped down to the goal, remembered where I put my things with my briefcase and ran. After running around, he jerked off by thrusting the spine into the ass. I got dressed and went home. At the same time, he stared only at the girls. Like all the guys, I lifted up their skirts. I wanted not only to show, but also to watch. The passion for peeping persisted later, first for my sister, then for adult girls peeing in the woods or in courtyards during the holidays. That's how it "developed". When I got married, the Internet appeared and I started broadcasting my naked wife. She was 19 years old. Sometimes he set up the camera unnoticed and had sex with her on "live TV". Then I read hundreds of comments, offensive and pleasant. I quickly realized that it was dangerous, and became more careful. When we went on vacation in a paycard, he constantly opened the window and exposed his shaved ass. Or jerking off in front of people we drive through the window in the vestibule. When the girls looked at me, I was very excited. So far, nothing seems to be criminal, but now the time has come. I often told my wife on vacation that I would go and see the beach. I usually walked along the wild beach to a secluded place, undressed and jerked off in front of suitable women. When some old-fashioned tourists looked at me, I finished and came back. Once in Greece, I walked away from a nudist beach without panties and walked along a wild beach. It's not the season. Along the way there was only an empty beach and a gay couple of nudists. I walked away from them, went into the sea and stretched my ass with my fingers under the water. After washing "from the inside", I went into the bushes. I found a long sea pebble for anal stimulation and relaxed. While masturbating, I suddenly saw that the gays had left their place for some reason and came to me. At first I threw the stone away and jumped up, but they had already seen everything. One of them began to lay out the things he had brought, the second naked came up to me. The guy is about 40 years old, I was about 23. He looked me up and down, said "beautiful boy" and started touching himself. His penis, even in a relaxed state, was the diameter of a beer bottle. A kind of "king" of nudist beaches. The second one lay down on the mat and also began to touch his relaxed penis. My heart started beating, I wanted to leave, but I didn't. When his penis tensed, almost fainting from fear, he said "hi!" he didn't even smile, just came up and began stroking my ass. I decided it was too late to do anything and touched his penis. The man himself was of a solid build, the second was thin, with a normal-sized penis lying and looking at us. I plucked up the courage and asked, "do you have a condom?" He smiled and said "eu eu eu!" the second one happily jumped up to the backpack, took out and threw the package to us. The first one became serious and repeated "good fight! Good boy!" turned me around and began to spread my buttocks. I got down on all fours, dying of excitement and struggling with a crazy heartbeat. After a while, for the first time I felt his finger in my ass, and then his penis. When he tried to enter, I felt a sharp pain, but he held me tightly and continued to enter repeating "good boy". Then he came in completely, and I felt a little better. He crawled slowly at first, then faster and faster in my ass, constantly repeating "goode, goode" I don't know what I was thinking at that moment, because I've never looked at men. Although I liked it when, during sex with my wife on the beach, I suddenly saw that it was men who were watching us, but this is different, I still like that they see her! And how I get into her gorgeous ass! I myself have only seen fat and old Europeans, and here is a young and stunning blonde! But this time it was my ass that was being looked at and it was my anus that was being stretched.. One finished with an exclamation of pleasure and said something to the other. One member slipped out of me, the other entered. The anus burned so much that I no longer seemed to feel it, but only felt it somewhere in the intestine. The second one was crawling for a long time. My cheeks were burning, my heart was pounding. When the second one finished, I got up and went to sea. Touching my ass on the way, I saw a little blood on my fingers. After standing in the sea, I went to my wife. Three years have passed, I still expose my naked wife without permission, try to have sex with her so that we are noticed, sometimes masturbate in front of strangers and keep remembering that crazy day, and the worst thing is, I dream of repeating it, but I do nothing. It's just that if a chance comes up, I'll give up again. Of course, I think that this is not normal, I struggle with myself. I'm tired of it. I want to understand who I am, a passive gay? Just a pervert? And is it necessary to fight with yourself at all?